Wednesday, July 8, 2009

sticking

I posted a few weeks ago about how this pregnancy doesn't seem real to me yet; that I don't yet grasp the idea that there is another child, another little person, growing inside of me. The idea is sticking now.

This past Friday Keith and I experienced one of the single most scary moments of both of our lives. I don't want to go into any specific details because it was such a personal experience to both of us, but at one point, we thought we'd lost the baby. It was at that moment that the idea of the baby became real. My heart broke as I thought I'd never get to hold this baby as I got to with Luke. Or that I'd never get to feel the baby move inside me. Or get to hear it laugh some day. It was at that moment that I knew I loved this baby and wanted it to be real. I wanted it to stick.

At my appointment with the doctor on Monday, because we couldn't find the heartbeat with the usual thing, we were able to have a quick ultrasound to check what the status of my pregnancy was. Seeing the little heartbeat flicker away was such a welcome relief. All of our worries melted away and we were able to see our little peanut moving all over the place waving its arms and legs around.

Seems this baby already has a flair for the dramatic and likes to put on a good show. I love it.

8 comments:

Tabby said...

I will be praying for you hun! I'm soooo glad everything is ok, my heart dropped at the thought of anyone having to go through that!

Tabby said...

I'm sooooo glad everything is ok. My heart dropped at the thought of anyone having to go through something like that. I will be praying for you hun!!!

Belinda said...

Reading this blog actually got me a little teary-eyed. So much emotion! I understand how you were feeling and am happy it all worked out. Here's to a happy and healthy remainder of the pregnancy!! :)

Jo Blum said...

I'm glad to hear Katie! You and your family will be in our prayers. How lucky this new little one is to have such loving and caring parents.

Mattie said...

I'm so happy that your little one is sticking!!

Unknown said...

Since it has the flair for the dramatic it is a GIRL.....I am so glad everything worked out and is sticking. Love you Mom :)

Kristi @ Lolly Jane said...

Must be a little girl... drama queen! SO happy everything is going better for you! :)

Traci Tenkely said...

I am so happy to hear that everything is going okay! I agree... it must be a girl! Troublemaker already.