I absolutely love staying home with Luke. I totally understand that some people aren't cut out for the stay-at-home mom situation. I'm thriving in it. I love that I'm the one who takes care of him good times and bad. I love that I've been here to experience most of his 'firsts.' I love that I'm the one who is making decisions about how he's being raised and that I get to maintain the kind of schedule and order that I'd like in his life. Most of all, I love that I'm the one he gets to play with and snuggle all day.
I'm also able to keep the house tidy (most of the time-sorry honey!) and get the vast majority of the errands accomplished during the day, so by the time Keith gets home, it's family time and we don't have to go other places.
The economy is not in a good place right now by a long shot. I can't honestly turn a blind eye to this. It's become such a prevalent part of the news and a popular topic of discussion no matter who you speak with. Teaching is a secure position for me, but with all the recent budget cuts and with more on the horizon, I'm concerned that if I leave the profession now, there might not be an opening for me if I need to go back in the near future. With so many people being laid off that have degrees and easy access to gaining a teaching certificate, the job market for teachers is about to be flooded with potential candidates. Although we don't need for me to be working at this moment, who's to say what could happen in the future.
After considering all this, I'm thinking that another year of teaching couldn't possibly hurt. We could save like crazy to build a bigger financial cushion and even have the maternity coverage to have another baby (not right away) paid for courtesy of the district, not our savings account. I could make the commitment to get to school on-time and leave on-time and just bring a chunk of work home to be completed after Luke goes to bed each evening. I know there has to be someone in the Sonoma community who has to offer daycare, so Luke would be close. I could help get Keith and I in a situation I feel much more comfortable with for the long term.
But then I think of this-
and the argument starts all over again. I have no idea what to do.