redemption

After the fiasco that yesterday was, I was reminded today why I've wanted to be a mom since I can remember. Keith was nice enough to handle Luke this morning while he was still here and let me sleep in a little extra. Once I was up and had finished feeding Reagan, I got my turn to eat breakfast. As I was standing up to clear my spot, Luke ran up to me and squeezed my legs as hard as he possibly could in a huge bear hug. Then he said the most amazing thing. "Yuv you." Translated, it means I love you. He said it completely unprompted for the first time and as he looked up at me with the most excited face, I was overwhelmed with emotion. Why dwell on the rough days when the days go by so fast as it is?

I can today say the same things that I said yesterday. It will get better and I will have good days and bad days. Yesterday I was saying it as a survival mechanism; today I say it proudly. I do love my family, my kids, my life. Everything isn't always perfect, but days like today remind me that it can come dang close.